It is with trepidation that I write my first blog, so much so that I have spent the last 2hours doing anything but putting pen to paper, or in this case finger to key. I am apprehensive about content, the entertainment factor but more than anything about being judged. Writing a blog for me is almost like writing a diary entry, I’ve had the pleasure of sharing people’s secrets, pain & laughter through their blogs & it scares me to put myself “out there” like that, but this is something I have been threatening on you good folk for some time, so today while I have a quiet moment I thought I would start in the only way I know how; by the age old means of introduction, so, “Hello I am Jenn with a Pen”
There are certain things you need to know about me. I am a complex girl & I don’t pretend to be otherwise, I am an age old romantic who is in love with love itself, I am honest, but never to the point where my honesty will hurt or offend & when I care about something or someone I do so with every fibre of my being. I can often speak before I think yet I am afraid of any form of confrontation, which has been much to my detriment. I am my biggest critic, I cannot take a compliment & I will NEVER be happy with how I look despite having lost the weight I wanted to lose. I am mostly happy but have days like any other that are tinged with sadness or insecurity or anger….. These emotions however are fleeting, I feel them I own them & then honestly I let them go because I believe people can waste precious time on feelings that inevitably make them bitter. I am a wife to be, a WW advocate but mostly I am me and I admit I am still growing so that one day I may become the person I have always wanted to be.
Over the last 12months I have become a Twittering Fanatic & it is because of this that I endeavor to join the blogging world, because while you all know I can talk (god knows some of you probably wish I would shut up every now & then) I think it’s important you all know the girl behind the tweets. I honestly don’t know which direction the blog will go in but I thought maybe if I started by introducing myself to you all my next blog could be a little more adventurous & it wouldn’t find me sitting in front of the screen typing, deleting, re-reading & invariably TRYING to build up the courage to press POST !!!!!